Our dogs we oblivious of the
natural beauty around us, they were just interested in the new smells. The
stark grey leafless trees, inside of the granite fence posts with their rusted
red iron rails marked ancient family plots. An occasional evergreen and a few
lonesome daffodils added a little color to the scene. The grass is still brown
with patches of green and a few tattered flags, that had made it through the
winter.
Walking along the
paths of the aging roadway I notice names of folks once prominent in the town. Among
them are not only names from history but as time goes on, I notice many more
that I knew personally. There are even a few stones of my students scattered
among them. I had walked these solemn, peaceful paths many times over the past
70 years sometimes, looking for answers or at others just seeking comfort in my
thoughts.
This evening was different in a way.
I seemed to be noticing more of the surroundings, crisp air, sharp edges,
unmanicured landscape following winter's cold blasts. It was a calming evening,
just slowly drifting along with my wife and my dogs in the lead in what seemed
a slower pace than usual. The hectic pace of life had slowed down.
As I was ambling along, I began to
think of the numerous trips that I have made with my mother over the past few
years, assisting her in taking care of graves of her loved ones that have passed,
in other cemeteries. At 94, the realization that there are more of her
friends below the ground than above must weigh heavily on her thoughts.
Are we really here to walk among
the graves or visit the spirits of those past that remain in our minds? I feel that those spirits remain with us as
time goes on and sometimes a stroll among the headstones can bring them back to
us.
On this particular evening, my mind was adrift
with many thoughts, when I gradually sensed a feeling of warmth and calm
surrounding me. It was like a great big, invisible, soft, warm blanket slowly encircling
me. I felt an inner peace as I drifted along. It seemed to be so much more comforting
than I had ever experience before, a welcomed encounter. It felt like a warm,
familiar cloud of safety surrounding me. The cares of the world briefly
disappeared as I walked along. I didn’t stop to look around as I knew the area
very well. I had just passed grandparent’s final resting place and I was going
up small incline that I had played on many times as a young child. I used to
love to run down that slope and my grandmother would often have to pick me up
and dust off my scraped knees. This evening, I am sure it was her spirit with me,
her love once again surrounding me, assuring me that everything was going to be
alright, like she used to do when I fell.
As I moved down the road, I could
feel the chill of the night air gradually returning, and I came out of that warm
cocoon. I didn’t regret or miss the loss of the warm and close feeling. I just
felt the refreshing afterglow of a wonderful experience. She had wiped away my
tears and comforted life’s bruised knees.
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